Well I haven't posted in a while because I haven't had much to say.

The last week and a half has been a difficult time for our family. My precious daughters husband has deployed to Iraq. It is so difficult to see your child hurting and to know that there is nothing you can do to help them. They are so young in their marriage and they are having to learn some tough things right now. My husband is a cop and I learned early on that when he walked out that front door each night I may never see him again. I had to learn to place his life in God's hands and that I was not in control of it. It was a difficult lesson and I will not lie for the first year and half I was on anxiety medicine just to survive. Now I am having to try and help me child learn that same type of lesson. She has to trust God and realize that her husband is in his hands and whatever happens whether he comes on completely safe and healthy, comes home injured, or does not come home that it was God who had it all planned and there was nothing she could do about it. Hopefully I can help her and she will not suffer as hard as I did because I did not have a mother who understood the feelings she is having.

She is hanging in there though and she has been lucky in that she has heard from him every other day at least. Even if their conversations are only a couple of a minutes at a time. I am so proud of the strength she is showing.

For my husband and I it has been a big change because we had gotten used to having the house to ourselves and doing what we wanted whenever we wanted and we didn't have to worry about who else was there or if they cared. Our daughter is living with us again with her husband being gone and so the house is full. She also brought her dog so that brings us to total of four dogs in the house and sometimes it can be very hectic especially since her dog refuses to stay outside for more than 20 minutes at a time. Oh well we will do the best that we possibly can and things will be okay. We are going to have to work as a family to keep this house for being destroyed because it is a small house and there is not much room. I haven't talked to my daughter yet but she is going to have to help around here to because with her here it makes for extra work for me to keep the laundry done, house cleaned, and everything running smoothly. At this point I wish I had not gone back to work because I don't have enough time or energy to keep up with it all, but I can't quit right now.

Well those are just a few thoughts of what has been going on lately. I will try to update more often.

So long for now.

Where I am at!!

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old hour
Time to breathe in and let everything out

FOUND!!!!

Well we found our dogs late yesterday morning. My husband received a call about 11:45 from a lady who found them by Midland High School, which is downtown and quite a ways from our house. We were so thankful that nothing happened to them and that she actually called us about our dogs.

The sad thing is that at 5 am this morning they got out again but we found then within about an hour so they didn't get far this time. My husband finally figured out how they got out. He found a hole in the back alley fence line that was only visible from the alley so tonight we will fill in the hole with cement so that can't get out.

These past two events have reminded me of how much God takes care of me even in the little insignificant things of keeping my dogs safe from harm and returning them to me. I don't think about this until after the fact because during the searches for them I was panicking and knew I would never see them again. But God is faithful and takes care of us even when we forget about him at first. So Father thank you so much for bringing my precious dogs back to me. For those of you who don't know me my dogs are like my children, as my only child is grown and married. The dogs have become my children and who I put my energy into taking care of except of course for my wonderful husband. They fill my house with such joy and laughter and love.

For those of you reading this, I know I am rambling and writing about silly stuff but this blog is actually for me to get things out of my head and not really meant to be informative for anyone. Sorry that sounds so selfish but that is how I feel about what I am doing. If I don't get these thoughts out of my head then I will sit and dwell on them and they will block out whatever else God has planned for me.

I would like though to take a moment and say thank you to all the men and women who serve in the armed forces. The sacrifices that they make in order to keep our country safe and free are immeasurable. We would not live in this free country today with the freedoms that we have if it were not for them. Also to my son in law if you ever read this, thank you so much for what serving your country. I know it is hard to leave your wife (my daughter) and it will be a long journey but the two of you will grow stronger even when apart and what you are doing is greatly appreciated by more people than you can ever imagine. Just remember Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

That is all for now.
God Bless.

What is up????

So this morning we let our three dogs outside to go the bathroom as usual. This was around 6:00 to 6:15 am. Then at around 6:45 to 7:00 my little schnauzer is barking at the front door. So we bring him, run to the backyard to check on our two big dogs and low and behold they are not in the backyard. We immediately start searching to find where they possibly escaped. What do we find, the back gate is closed the side gate is closed and there are no holes around the fence and those two dogs could not jump the fence if they wanted to. So the only logical explanation we can come up with is that someone took our dogs. Why would anyone take two mutts and leave the purebred dog? Jack and Jill are so friendly and socialized that they will go to anyone whereas Harley will only go to myself, my husband, and our daughter, so we figure someone tried to take them all and Harley ran and Jack and Jill went willingly because they love people. I am so livid and mad I can hardly keep from screaming. How could and why would anyone take someones dogs from their backyard? I just don't understand what is happening in this world.

So my prayers for right now are that whoever took them will love and provide a good home for them. We are going to check the pound and maybe someone turned them in there but I don't have much hope for that because they did not escape the backyard, they were taken.

UGH!!!!!!!

Guess I will join the blogging community

Well I have decided to join the community of bloggers. The only thing is, I am keeping it pretty much private and only I can decide who gets to read my blog. The reason being for this is that I will be really personal and not everyone needs to know how I am feeling about things and what I am doing.

A bit of basic information about myself. I am 37 years of age and married to my high school sweetheart. We have been married for 17 1/2 wonderful years but have been together for over 20 years. It seems like a lifetime but a great lifetime. We have a beautiful daughter who is 19 years old. She is married to a wonderful man who is currently serving in the Army and will be deploying to Irag on November 20, 2009 (more on that later). All of my family except for my sister live in town with me. We currently have three dogs but when our daughter moves home we will have four. That is going to be a great challenge but we will get through it. I currently work at Stonegate Fellowship church as the Administrative Assistant to the Children's Pastor. I never would have dreamed of working at church and I am truly blessed to be there. It was the best decision I ever made as I truly loving working with all the kids on Sunday mornings and also I am able to explore my creativity in helping write curriculum. I am a Christ-follower and have truly been blessed by my Lord and Savior throughout my life.

Well as my brain is not working and wanting to put out more information right now. I am going to go for now. Not to mention the fact I have to go change out the laundry. Tomorrow I will really start adding to this blog and not just rambling or so I hope to.